“Though the mountain may crumble, you will not.” Isaiah 54:10
During this pandemic, I have struggled with giving myself the space to feel my emotions. I avoid dwelling in the world of feelings, and instead wear blinders only allowing me to focus on the tasks before me. If I feel my inner voice start to inform me of the anxiety, tiredness, sadness, or discomfort that my mind is trying to manage, I immediately push those thoughts aside. I convince myself that I simply “do not have the time” to listen. How many of us have continued to put our own emotional wellbeing or mental health aside, because we feel we cannot tackle the “mountain” of feelings that come with it? One of the most challenging parts is that we cannot even comfort ourselves by saying this will all go back to normal soon, because we have no idea when that will be, and it certainly will be a new form of the normal we have known.
When I see friends, loved ones, and the children and students in my life begin to demonstrate acts such as tantrums, irritability, a lack of motivation to complete the simplest of tasks – I remind them, and myself, that we are all experiencing a trauma. Every day brings about hard choices, endless self-doubt, and a constant vigilance to keep ourselves and our families safe. We are living through a period of time that the decision to eat at a restaurant or grab a coffee from Starbucks carries with it risks that need to be weighed. Parents have to juggle wanting to keep their kids safe from public spaces, but not wanting to need to get a sitter for a simple grocery shop. Our minds are overtaxed and overworked.
I have learned over the years, that strength is not about being able to “push through” tough emotions, but is more about having the courage to acknowledge them and process them. Parents are dealing with children acting out when they cannot find the words, nor have the comprehension to understand the feelings and worries in their minds. Friends are finding themselves feeling distant and longing for hugs, handshakes, and comforting pats on the back. It is important that we spend the time needed to work through our emotions. Feel them, process them, and then allow yourself the mental freedom to move forward.
One of my absolute favorite words in the Bible are those above, “though the mountain may crumble, you will not.” Use these words, or any words, to form a mantra in your mind. Yes, it may feel like more than you can handle, but know that when we let go, and let God, we will not crumble.
Prayer Focus: For those struggling with heavy thoughts or feelings
Prayer: Dear Lord, help us to lean on your strength, and to know that You will not let us crumble. May we acknowledge our emotions and cast our anxieties to You. Amen.